Decapitation

love has decapitated me over and over
and rebuilt me,
to be the Sun that glows,
more brightly than any other Star,

Even when all the light had vanished from the Sky,
and safety was snatched from my Bones,
when they stole my Light from me, hid it in dark places,
even when they had mutilated my Mouth from my words,
how they eroded into my eyes,
made me see unclearly,
Denied me of the truth,
how they would Lie,

how Love looked so abberant back then
how I thought maybe I had got it wrong,
thought ‘I was broken’ I would say.
then I met all the faces of the unhealed love that I had been given
different men with different names
Different reflections of that which I didn’t have,
And now,
whilst I put myself back together,
again,

after Love that Stole from me,
that had me under a Spell,
had me searching for him
in every leaf, in every star, in every cloud
under every stone, every wave that crashed,
every moon cycle that grew through its pregnancy,

how I even now,
I sit under churches,
on mexican land
wondering how the streets are all empty
without him in it,

how I thought that Love could Prevail,
how my Dignity was even taken from me
Now I realise,
He couldn’t love an insect

I am
The Sun that glows,
love, and my Light,
this Sun inside of Me,

how after the downfall,
there is an Uprising.